Promise Me: The final Encore: TAT: A Rocker Romance (6) by Melanie Walker

Author:Melanie Walker [Walker, Melanie]
Language: eng
Format: azw3
Publisher: Melanie Walker
Published: 2016-12-12T05:00:00+00:00

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I want drums dad. Axe tells me and I want so bad to fight him on it. I know he's right though. He is fascinated by Shame and the drums, he copies him, though he doesn’t quite understand that he needs to loosen his arms. He plays like he has a low-tom and high-tom and that's it.

I am trying to get him ready for the Christmas Eve dinner at Noah and Brights, but he was just a questioner of all things tonight.

"Guitar is so much cooler dude." I use ASL and also speak because he can hear some, but also seeing lips helps him.

He shakes his head no at me and laughs when I poke his side. The last year and a half have been huge for his development. He goes with me on tour most of the time and I bring his development coach as well as the classes and therapuetic needs met here. Jen has been a huge help to us… well now I guess to me and Axe because Tay hasn’t been around.

Will momma be there? He signs and it's like he knows when I think of her even though I mask my emotions big time.

"Momma J will, but Tayla won't be here until tomorrow. Remember, she called on facetime to tell you so." We started to refer to them as Momma T and Momma J so he could learn he essentially had two. I question it now though, because she calls him once a week and hasn’t seen him since Thanksgiving. Part of me wants him to forget her, the other says to do as therapists tell me and let him come to terms on his own. I have stopped referring to Tay as Momma T so that he can understand that, sadly she seems to not want to be his mother. How do you tell your kid the mom they know and love, doesn’t want to commit to it?

Answer me that and I will give you a million dollars if it works.

Tayla isn't my mom huh dad?

His face breaks me every time I see that sadness again. I swore the sadness was done for this kid if I could avoid it. Instead I started a family overnight with the woman I thought was my forever. "Momma J is son. Jenny gave me you. You came from her tummy. Tayla is just someone who loves you a lot baby."

If Tay didn't love Axe then she would be the one to prove it. I wasn't going to tell him who he loved didn't love him back.

"Does… momma T love…you daddy?" He spoke slow and signed me his words, but they killed me the same.

"She might… Daddy doesn’t know that." I gave him a half truth, but I knew T and I were done. So very done and love didn't matter a fuck all in the end.

I love you dad. He says with his hands and it still speaks louder to me than anything else he could say with his voice.

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